Post by Vaelushyn on Aug 24, 2012 6:23:42 GMT -6
Hello all. I didn't want to get into it why I left Wed in /l because I don't believe in saying things in the moment of anger and it's absolutely not my intention to ever say anything to tarnish fellow lses or friends, which I hope I still have after this. I just wanted at least one chance to explain myself.
Last Sun I was truly joking with Ikonic about inviting me into his party to slow, and Ik I want to be the first to tell you out of all the years we've known each other it was never my intent to truly piss you off and for that I am sorry about that. I just know we mess with each other all the time mocking each other's leader's methods and I think absolutely nothing of it when it's you on my end and thought you felt the same and I guess it just wasn't a good day.
I know we all have bad days and I 100% understand that, it's just how it was handled that caused my decision. I got to thinking about how you said you were /blisting me Sun over the week over that and it really bothered me that you would and obviously do /blist your members when they annoy you mid event leaving them unable to communicate with you during runs is just something I just personally find unprofessional. To /blist after sure, but I would never cut dialogue with any ls members mid run because I want to be able to answer any Qs that come my way mid run.
That in mind I thought when I would confront you about it last Wed, and yes I did say if I were /blisted Sun that Wed would be my last run, I honestly thought I would just get at least an apology for overeacting on a bad day, I would've apologized for annoying you and done deal and I'd still be with you now. Instead I got "whatever" as a reply. To a friend and fellow ls leader that has co oped with you, even if you didn't care for how late an unorganized we were we WERE there for HA when HA events consisted of 3-6 people. The friend who was there for you even after you booted my hubby for literally running in circles while people gathered together. Who was the first to offer to lvl Morrd to be your personal feather mule after both Ayrea & Jg left and abruptly took a break from XI with your 9/9 feather pop sets back when Odin required 9 to enter. Who has been there just to listen in private to you on a bad day when you were hurt by a close friend or ls drama and all I got was a "whatever" kind of idgaf attitude? I just really thought you thought more of me than that, and it really hurt to hear you didn't.
I really do consider Ik and alot of people in the ls really good friends, and because of that this decision was not easy at all and I really hope that I've not lost friends here because of it. I just honestly can't do it anymore. As Ik stated he's not a morning person, but neither am I but I know how to fake it because I know it's not fair to take my grumpiness out on people who didnt ask for me to be at or host a morning event.lol
I just can't walk on eggshells anymore to attend an event that I have felt for a very long time that no one really wants to be at because it's not Odin II. I mean Wed before last we lost abjurations to the floor because space wasn't made for them all, and even this Wed the last thing that was said was "Since we don't really make much off tatters from Odin and no one needs anything from Odin I don't honestly care much to host it." I mean why do it just for the sake of "that's what we do on Wed/Suns"?
I just want to say despite all I've written above, I'm not pointing fingers here about who's fault it is I left etc it was 100% my choice to leave, I just wanted to write how I felt and why I've left. I truly wish this ls all the best, and if any of you need my help outside events please don't hesitate to ask, and any events you see on my ls you need your more than welcome with. :) Peace all and I hope to see your around!
~Vael~ ^_^v
Last Sun I was truly joking with Ikonic about inviting me into his party to slow, and Ik I want to be the first to tell you out of all the years we've known each other it was never my intent to truly piss you off and for that I am sorry about that. I just know we mess with each other all the time mocking each other's leader's methods and I think absolutely nothing of it when it's you on my end and thought you felt the same and I guess it just wasn't a good day.
I know we all have bad days and I 100% understand that, it's just how it was handled that caused my decision. I got to thinking about how you said you were /blisting me Sun over the week over that and it really bothered me that you would and obviously do /blist your members when they annoy you mid event leaving them unable to communicate with you during runs is just something I just personally find unprofessional. To /blist after sure, but I would never cut dialogue with any ls members mid run because I want to be able to answer any Qs that come my way mid run.
That in mind I thought when I would confront you about it last Wed, and yes I did say if I were /blisted Sun that Wed would be my last run, I honestly thought I would just get at least an apology for overeacting on a bad day, I would've apologized for annoying you and done deal and I'd still be with you now. Instead I got "whatever" as a reply. To a friend and fellow ls leader that has co oped with you, even if you didn't care for how late an unorganized we were we WERE there for HA when HA events consisted of 3-6 people. The friend who was there for you even after you booted my hubby for literally running in circles while people gathered together. Who was the first to offer to lvl Morrd to be your personal feather mule after both Ayrea & Jg left and abruptly took a break from XI with your 9/9 feather pop sets back when Odin required 9 to enter. Who has been there just to listen in private to you on a bad day when you were hurt by a close friend or ls drama and all I got was a "whatever" kind of idgaf attitude? I just really thought you thought more of me than that, and it really hurt to hear you didn't.
I really do consider Ik and alot of people in the ls really good friends, and because of that this decision was not easy at all and I really hope that I've not lost friends here because of it. I just honestly can't do it anymore. As Ik stated he's not a morning person, but neither am I but I know how to fake it because I know it's not fair to take my grumpiness out on people who didnt ask for me to be at or host a morning event.lol
I just can't walk on eggshells anymore to attend an event that I have felt for a very long time that no one really wants to be at because it's not Odin II. I mean Wed before last we lost abjurations to the floor because space wasn't made for them all, and even this Wed the last thing that was said was "Since we don't really make much off tatters from Odin and no one needs anything from Odin I don't honestly care much to host it." I mean why do it just for the sake of "that's what we do on Wed/Suns"?
I just want to say despite all I've written above, I'm not pointing fingers here about who's fault it is I left etc it was 100% my choice to leave, I just wanted to write how I felt and why I've left. I truly wish this ls all the best, and if any of you need my help outside events please don't hesitate to ask, and any events you see on my ls you need your more than welcome with. :) Peace all and I hope to see your around!
~Vael~ ^_^v
